Saturday, 19 December 2015

Lost in the Smoke

It seemed as if there was no other world, no other place that could have made us feel freedom to this extent. I was riding an Avenger, not caring about a traffic police interruption, without a helmet, swaying it on the countryside road whenever I wanted to. It was around three in the afternoon. All three of us were under the effect of beer buzz and headed on our rides to the Vagator beach.

The serpentine roads were lined, on one side with equidistant, tall palm trees, and on the other side, with faraway, little cottages in the extensive fields. We decided to halt around that area for some minutes of DSLR session. Daljeet had recently bought one, exhausting almost his entire savings of pocket money he had gathered over months.

“Goa’s heaven for pics”, Daljeet exclaimed framing our bikes against the fields and the inclined afternoon sun.

“And he was the one not coming” Shikoh teased him, sipping through the Budweiser can, “For all money you bought this stuff, it was meant for places like these.”

And I added to the mockery, “Plus it’s okay to loan a trip from your friends!”

Leaving aside his DSLR, Daljeet stared with helpless, gratitude-full expressions towards us. Perhaps, he did it out of his misplaced sense of keeping the accounts balanced. “Go ahead, dude”, Shikoh offered his beer can to him, probably to make him know he should shred the false burden he assumed on himself.

“Care to join us in the party?” An unfamiliar, French-toned voice interrupted us from behind.

“Who’s this?” Shikoh asked him. Tucked up in a ragged t-shirt, he smelt profusely of alcohol and weed. He had kept a goatee and had made a ponytail of his curly hairs. Pointing towards a group of youngsters quite ahead of us, he said, tapping Daljeet’s shoulders, “Come on guys, you’ll forget the world and enjoy! We have all the stuff.”

All the stuff! That was enough to trigger loops of imaginations in anyone’s mind. Avoiding any diversions from our plan, I rejected his invitation, “Can’t join, buddy! We’re headed to Vagator.” Shikoh got the indication and he boarded his bike, but Daljeet had his fantasies rolling. He promptly asked, “Are there girls?” The man chuckled and said, “French!” I could witness gleaming sparkles in Daljeet’s eyes and made an immediate attempt to cut down the conversation, “Sorry, we have to go.”

Daljeet, though a bit disappointed, loaded himself on his Avenger and we started towards our pre-decided destination.

As heard always, Vagator was like the concealed, calm end of Goa. There were little shops where we parked our bikes. But the main beach huddled with palm trees and sand, gleaming yellowish-red against the setting sun, was down the cliff made of reddish rocks and was free of any population. Towards the right end of the cliff was an old, ruined fort like structure, its wall standing against the sea.

We climbed down the steps to the beach, opened our whiskey bottles and raised the toast to that moment. The lightly moist cool breeze carried small drizzles of salty water along with the gushing waves. For me, it was my first view of the sun diving into the sea. I could actually feel all recollections, happy or sad, exciting or boring, surfacing in my consciousness. The only apparent sound was the lapping of the waves, the only feeling was a sea breeze and the only wish was to lie down carefree on that beach. As if there was no returning back…

And then we heard a loud cheer. It was from a group on the left end of the beach where the cliffs were dropping down to the sea. As we looked towards them, they waved their hands calling us. The sun was down the sea, and even the last rays peeping out of the horizon were making their final show. Shikoh hinted to us, “I think we should leave. We’ll have sea food prepared in the shacks.”

“You have a little shack there”, Daljeet pointed to the same end where the group was enjoying their smoke. And the other two of us knew what idea Daljeet’s mind was playing with. And since we had decided on a protocol of freedom, we submitted to Daljeet’s wishes.
Shikoh and I had never smoked weed, nor did we have any such plans. We settled down with a plate of Goan fish curry, while Daljeet, who initially resisted a bit as a show-off, joined the jubilation. The party carried on even in the dark, towards the rocks a bit left from the shack. The night sea was even more wondrous, the never ending dark waters ending as frothy waves at the windy beach. The light grassy bushes at the shack swayed hitherto as the temperatures started dropping.

“He won’t end soon” Shikoh pointed that out the fiftieth time.

“Why are you bothered, dude? Let’s relax here… Nice food” I chewed up a fried prawn, “Can you check the bags, and that guy’s DLSR?”

Shikoh eyeballed the bags on the right corner, and then continued gulping from the Carlsberg bottle he had bought from the shack owner. The night crept in, the stars spread the carpet over the Arabian Sea and our friend, Daljeet was also probably yelling at the limits of his throat along with the mad group.

Out of nowhere, we saw few people out of the rejoicing flock letting out concerned calls to someone. We soon recognized Daljeet running randomly at the edge of the sea. As he crossed the shack, we saw no member of the group following him. He was alone and down with lots of smoke. And in no time, I freaked out; Daljeet had dived into the sea…

“He doesn’t even know swimming” I yelled out to Shikoh to follow me as I sped towards the point I had seen him diving from. Hastily, I dropped mine and Daljeet’s phone, which I had carried, on the beach itself.

“You stay back and drag me once I come back near the end.”

Instructing Shikoh to be ready, I made a dive. The water was bitterly cold. Daljeet was pretty inside from the beach. As I surfaced against a couple of strong waves, carried back and forth along with the water, I saw Daljeet’s hand going up and down in a random, troubled movement. He was attempting to breathe inside water, causing him to gulp the nastily salty water. I attempted to use my legs against the sea bed to push myself against the waves. But no one knows what lies below the water! The seabed had a sharp slope down from the near end where it met the beach. Drifting back to get myself stable, I made an attempt to push myself ahead and reach out to him. His hands were something I shouldn’t have caught hold of; he would have drowned me frisking with his hands. Clenching him by his legs, I pushed him towards the beach, rounded my grip on his shirt and swam back. Another round of huge wave entangled us and threw us back to the point from where Shikoh easily dragged us on to the shore. As Shikoh brought our stupid friend to consciousness by forcing out water from his lungs, I stabilized myself from the recent adventure I landed into.

“Why did you do this?” Shikoh asked him angrily.

Daljeet had no words, or probably his state, after a sequence of randomness followed by fear, did not let him come back to normalcy. He twisted his forehead, clutching his hairs, as if trying to remember something. We sat around him, making sure everything was fine, until he spoke after a minute, “I just remember… The guy we met on the road… Offered me weed… Challenged me something…”

“That same French guy? How did he land up here?” I inquired him.
Shikoh nudged my shoulders. “That group was the one he was pointing to.”

We looked towards the screaming herd of wild people, careless and unaware of the near escape of one of their partners from drowning.

“But why would he challenge you to dive into the sea?”
“I don’t know”, Daljeet stammered.
“I think I might… See there.” Shikoh pointed out to the shack. 

And as we saw, in whatever light the shack lamps could provide, someone groping through the bags we had left there, we were clear of the French guy’s intention. We darted towards the shack, but he was speedy enough to escape towards the steps over the cliff. Daljeet reached the shack behind us, panting and still under the weed effect. But he did not know all that effect was short-termed. Something was going to bring his peace upside down. What I suspected when Shikoh pointed out to the shack came out to be correct…

“It’s gone! No!” Daljeet yelled out gravely. Even the shack owner came out, attempting to understand his loss.

“The guy had a watch on this camera. We’ll ask the group. Hurry…!” Shikoh pushed Daljeet to get up. We ran to the cliff’s end. The noise was too high. I couldn’t make out whether people were actually talking sense or plainly shouting the alphabet ‘O’. I called a lad by waving my hands. He must have been around eighteen. Ignoring me, he continued his bottoms up round. Daljeet, who had been transformed into a state of frustration, caught that boy by his t-shirt and roped him out, “Where’s that guy? He had a goatee and a ponytail of his hairs… He spoke French…”

“Come on dude!” The intoxicated youngster nodded, swirling his beer bottle, “As if I know anyone here. We are all strangers. He must be someone like you, who joined us along the way!”

Daljeet’s disappointment was audible in a sigh. He let the lad loose, who joined the mad group back again. As we climbed the steps back with rest of the stuff ensured intact apart from the prized possession, we talked about ways- FIR’s, identity tracking through description. Most of it, we knew, was waste. Shikoh and I shared his depression, but somewhere, keeping the amount invested aside, we desired to laugh at the fool Daljeet had made of himself.

As we returned on our bikes and rode to the nearest police station, a thought kept crossing my mind, something the French guy had already hinted to us, ‘Come on, guys. You’ll forget the world and enjoy.’ I decided, ‘Next time, if I would be in Goa, I would be free. Free of anything I could lose…’ The weird though made me smile, as I looked upon my friend on the other bike, deep in a trauma, and another one on the third Avenger, making bleak attempts to lessen his load of terrible sense of loss.

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